The Beast Beckons


Right, I’m letting go of the beast and going the whole nicotine replacement route. Fantastic! Well done me…

I am going INSANE!

Life is filled with displeasure and unhappiness – mine is currently self created. Think about it, I’m attempting to quit smoking and as a result I am turning into an unhappy, grumpy old fart who just threw his drum sticks across the room because nothing is feeling right. Don’t worry, I am alone, bar the piano which unfortunately got in the way.

My not smoking is making me unhappy, a mood which is going to impact not only myself but my beautiful lady as well as she is going through the motions too.

I managed to spare my children from the dreaded pits of hell and now the next fight is to do the same for my lady. Which brings me to my next excuse…

Why should we be made to feel unhappy and disillusioned with life and in the process be dragged down? Wouldn’t we both benefit if we just light up another portable cloud of cancer?

A fantastic excuse but one that only seems that way through the high of the withdrawing beast.

Will I give in?
I hope not… or then again, I hope so… or then again, I hope not.

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4 responses to “The Beast Beckons

  • woih

    AT least once a month a quit for a short time, then I fall back into it. My last was 10 days of not smoking..it was amazing how much I could smell and taste…then, a cigarette was in my mouth.

    The best of wishes…it’s the hardest thing I ever tried to quit.

    • notjeffery

      It is as hard as hell. Since putting that post up I’ve had maybe 3 smokes in total, which I guess isn’t bad when I usually average more than 20 a day.
      Did you manage to stop?

      Thanks for the read!
      Peace,

  • Maniacal Musical Mayhem

    Stop thinking into it so much you pussy. The key is to keep yourself occupied. Tell you what, I know something you can do: Email me back! Panorama of Darkness has a reunion tour to plan!

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